I know it’s been awhile since I have posted anything. I am not happy about it, trust me. And it’s not for a lack of trying, trust me again.
There are 12 drafts in my blogging dashboard. Some are just a title, some are pieces that I feel too shy to publish, others are bulleted and planned out. I keep doubting my writing and second-guessing what I finish. I keep comparing myself to other bloggers. Bloggers who have found their niche. Bloggers who perfectly and effortlessly tell their stories.
I am in a bit of a rut. You could call it an extreme case of writer’s block but I’m not even sure that covers it. I’m struggling to find the motivation to write. Sometimes I’m struggling to find the motivation to do anything productive at all.
I don’t know when this started but I’m not doing very well. It’s hard to explain. It’s like the things I crave out of life – a meaningful career, fulfilling relationships, self confidence, independence and adventure are absent or lacking.
I think I thought moving back to Minnesota would magically make everything better. It has definitely helped, no doubt, but I was a little oblivious to think it would be an automatic switch. I am still experiencing lingering sadness and unfulfillment.
Anyway, I just wanted to update those of you who have been waiting for a new post from me. I don’t want to ask too much of you, but if you can be patient with me and stick around, I promise I’ll be back eventually. I’m working on navigating my emotions and pinpointing whatever is causing my lack of motivation.
Thank you for your patience. Thank you for your reading eyes. Thank you for your open hearts. I’ll be back soon.